I can’t really say I have a perfect answer to help you with. But I thought it would be helpful to let you know your not alone. I can see that by doing what you have already been through, you had a dream and went for it. For awhile it was good even if it was “taken away”. For me I would be able to say,”hey I went for it and it happened.” That’s what I call an accomplishment. My whole life has been one struggle after another. I get so close and then it’s gone. The frustration of the idea of starting over seems endless. But I know that with each so called failure comes growth. Like a tree becoming stronger year after year. A little more than two years ago one of the biggest hurts of my life happened. The overwhelment was at it’s highest peak ever. I sat down put my face in my hands and prayed, “oh God I think I need a reset” To talk about the details are many but when our prayers get answered, there is no stopping it. It’s a process that takes time and patience. Don’t forget patience. That’s a tough one for me. Your going to have down days but when you are on the path that is meant for you nothing can stop you. Don’t give up just because you don’t see the results you are expecting. I have every reason to believe that even ALL of my dreams will come true. It is possible to have our wishes granted. I’ve had it happen even if it was in small ways. The small steps prepare us for the big stuff. I think that’s what is happening in the whole world. I have learned a lot of new things and I still have a lot more to go. But even at my worst time in my life I still have hope because there are a lot of people out there who can and will help you. I’m so very grateful to all of them because I wouldn’t be able to say these things right now. I have a friend that has become my answer to leading me in all of these things. If it wasn’t for him I,again, wouldn’t be here now. So maybe you need a reset or are already in the midst of it. Maybe you need to rethink your plans and ideas. I’m really not sure but I think it’s something along those lines. Listen to the little things because after awhile they add up into bigger things and then one day it all comes together and it makes sense and your gloom all of a sudden turns into joy again. So what ever it is you are wanting to achieve keep doing what it takes to work towards it. I haven’t reached mine yet but now I know even with every tap I make on my phone, brings me closer. Everything I do right now to work towards my goals brings me there. I have to learn to stop looking at the mountain in front of me and just start with one little bit at a time. Pull out the weeds and throw out the garbage. The things we don’t need anymore and the things that have no use. Sometimes what we think we are expecting ends up being something better.